'They say you have to chase your dreams, chase happiness. And that's why I have to keep on chasing you' ♥

Wow, so much time has passed since my last post... as always.
Things are still crazy. Sometimes I feel like my life is a very bad TV show... it sometimes seems to have enough storylines for at least five characters...
There are several great things though - I don't need to worry that much about exams anymore - at least not in maths. While it seemed to be impossible to scrape that one exam only one and a half year ago, now suddenly I passed the last maths exam. I did it. There's only one course left that I have to take next year. Crazy. For my English studies, there are a few more exams to come but nevermind. I know now, that it will work out somehow. I'm just trusting the journey...
In December, I'll start a huge trip, that also has to do something with my English studies... I'm so excited - I'll fly to the other end of the world! Crazy!
There are really some crazy things going on and I'm absolutely proud of how many of my former problems I've already solved... although others still remain the same. I'm talking, of course, of my best friend... It's been almost three years now. It's crazy how you can love someone that much for such a long time without being loved back. I've never felt anything more real, more intense...
Today, I read my old posts again and thought about how at that time, I would never have imagined sitting here, three years later, still crying about that friend...
Sad thing is, I still don't want to let these feelings go... a few months ago, he and his girlfriend broke up and I somehow hoped that at some time, even though in distant future, we might be together. But we won't. Seeing how the things have developed until now, I'm pretty sure, we'll never be together EVER.

But I still can't stop hoping...